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Dear,Old Me

Dear Old Me, Hello! Yarlyn How you been? I hope all is well. I hope you changed. Today is your conscience writing you about how you forgot to respect yourself. How you didn't put yourself first when it came to men. Remember when you met that dude you said you loved. He showed you it was only about one thing and that was what your dignity. Yarlyn you was in control! How could you let yourself be so uncareful for. Yarlyn How about when all the pain you went through when you was beat and made fun of at school. The days of pain. The days of sorrow. The days of the days you wanted to end yourself. For the fact you ever had the right inside to control yourself. Yarlyn you cried your eyes because you was unworthy. Unworthy for anyone attention. When I was called ugly and piece of sh** by of people who made fun of me in school and at home. I remember when i was played as a fool just because unworthy. Remember when you did everything hidden away from everyone eyes. Just because there

The Visits

The worst day is when is raining. When I was the Youngest girl. In that visit. Sitting with other people in a table. When I saw my older and my father in the same room and in the same jumper. Sad that i just felt like I was in a life that was not free at all. my Father just told me " Princess life is Only a dandelion blow the petals and it leaves in the air." Life leaves in a blink of eye. Those Guards looked like Big Black Beast in front of he door supervising everything that was being said. I remember when you came out and told me Princess where were you all this time mean while weeks were like years when he didn't see me. Life for me and them was complete darkness. I didn't know what to do I was nearly a Penny little kid. I saw the Tin Can cells. It felt like i was in a castle when i went to see my father. It was so much more that just oh going to see him is the context of what happens in that visit. My Mother and I would wait for Hours and Hours. When

Melting

Melting. Melting. My heart is like a ice burg it just drips in sorrow. Sorrow was a new thing that happen to me. It was like a new persona in me. My Heart was like a ice burg it just drops in Tears. Sad enough as I was so sad at the time that face with no expression. My heart would look at the dark shadow covering it it. Looked like the Grinch's Heart in cracks but still whole. Melting in my soul. Melting. JUST MELTING. My heart was a ice burg in the sun. Depression in glee looked at my face and said HI Imbecile. Depression was a Black sheet that covered my face. I covered my face in sorrow. Oh yes i was a Ice burg melting in sorrow sadness. I Saw the darkness take over me. Told me end this. You'll be happy. Go through that little door. My heart couldn't take it. Melting and I'm Melting.

Dear 2012

Dear 2012, You was a great year. I remember when Dad and Big Brother was out having a good time. I met my half brother. Jordi i remember like it was yesterday we talked about everything. He is still a year older than me. I finally had a sibling that was around my age. In that same year I remember when my dad was still out and free. I remember that we were living in the same address. Summers would be nice and comfy and I wouldn't have to be from couch to couch. In 2012 I remember that I didn't have to work. I was living like a princess. Daddy just asked " What you Want? You know what just take it the world is yours." I was my fathers favorite little girl. I was the youngest after all. My older Brother Sliverio was my father figure yet. He took a big role in Being there while i was going through school. My Dad and My Brother's really were my Heart and Soul wrapped in a big Cloth. My life revolved around them. Even though they risked their life and they didn't

why life treated you this way?

Why life treated you that way? Life is a hell whole for you huh Look at you life just done with nothing but negativity. Why talk about either of us. We pure like a Rose in water. Doesn't have any regrets even though humans have regrets. Remember when you made fun of me. Remember when you told me that I wasn't worth anything. When my words would clap back at me like a Fire Cracker. Then the situation happened... When you went against me and your mother. Especially when we cared when nobody did. Your choices made you look stupid. When I told you I was going to be better. I proved it to you made you look stupid. I made sure you wasn't going to provide for me anymore. You made me feel like anything. I was just 16 I got a whole job at a fast restaurant Working long nights I didn't have any kids Got me all I want. Got me a life with great vibe. Worked long nights to do what you did Provided for my great queen my mother Took my families sid

Blank

Blank You don't believe. Why not believe? How can you believe? If you have nothing to believe in! I can't believe in nothing but that I had a light soul. I was a person who didn't gain much feeling towards myself. I was a person who was looked at differently. My whole family called me '' Special". How though? Is it because I say much. At a young age I Felt like I had an inner soul. My soul wave link would communicate! Tell me what to do. What to say. The inner soul would even call me " Retarded ". Question was I really am i what that should really tells me? As time went on I started school! Soul wave links... were kind of Stronger! Is like I attracted the children in school towards me. In school children made fun of e called me " Wolf . I was a overly hairy girl. I wasn't happy with myself I was just a girl who was made fun of in school and at home. Yarlyn was just a sad child she was child. She never had her head