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Dear,Old Me

Dear Old Me,


Hello! Yarlyn How you been? I hope all is well. I hope you changed. Today is your conscience writing you about how you forgot to respect yourself. How you didn't put yourself first when it came to men. Remember when you met that dude you said you loved. He showed you it was only about one thing and that was what your dignity. Yarlyn you was in control! How could you let yourself be so uncareful for.
Yarlyn How about when all the pain you went through when you was beat and made fun of at school. The days of pain. The days of sorrow. The days of the days you wanted to end yourself. For the fact you ever had the right inside to control yourself.  Yarlyn you cried your eyes because you was unworthy. Unworthy for anyone attention. When I was called ugly and piece of sh** by of people who made fun of me in school and at home.
I remember when i was played as a fool just because unworthy. Remember when you did everything hidden away from everyone eyes. Just because there was a picture painted by someone about you and you didn't want to damage it because it was a holy picture.
Remember when you wasn't independent that you had to count on the others. When you was a peasant in your own kingdom. Hated the fact that if you wasn't treated like a peasant you wouldn't get what you wanted. So you had to portray a picture that wasn't you. Also you just had to sit down and stand sh** of other people talking down on you. Did you see how they treated ypu?

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